For Michelle McKenna, she's spent every day wondering what happened to her daughter, Sofia.
"She's presumed dead. She probably is, but there's that small percentage that she could be alive," McKenna said.
Her daughter, 21-year-old Sofia disappeared in the Long Island Sound on Memorial Day after taking a boat out on the water late at night with her friend, Spencer Mugford.
Mugford's body was found more than a week later, but what happened to the two of them and where Sofia is remains a mystery.
On Saturday, Michelle and loved ones she calls "Sofia's Army" will return to that spot to search.
"That's how I pray. And I pray to God and God will never ever leave a soul behind. Somehow we will find her," said Bernadette Eber, a family friend of the McKenna's.
Sofia lived with Eber who says she'll be out searching this weekend.
"I don't care what the police say or their view on what happened. They don't have a crystal ball," Eber said.
At four months since she was last seen, the light of hope that Sofia could possibly be found alive has begun to dim for many who know her, but one of her closest friends says that won't stop her from searching for Sofia and closure.
"She always had my back and that's Why I feel like I can't give up on her either," said Destany Gillespie, a friend of Sofia's.
On Friday, Sofia's mother will sleep another night without her oldest child, but she hopes on Saturday, the day may end a little different.
"I just, I"m praying for a miracle, you know. I still can, you know," McKenna said.